tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.comments2023-11-03T02:02:13.356-07:00The Voices WithinMe, Myself and Ihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-81933725047022859822017-04-24T06:58:38.163-07:002017-04-24T06:58:38.163-07:00"bland flyover country of the soul." Thi..."bland flyover country of the soul." This phrase is perfect. I'm slowly getting to that place of gratitude in my sobriety. It's only through painful growth that I am coming to realize that the gift of "normal" is beautiful. No more wild swinging from extreme to extreme..Wen Fhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02675256668121073854noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-75010002534716215292014-11-07T20:00:03.299-08:002014-11-07T20:00:03.299-08:00Thanks, Anne.Thanks, Anne.Me, Myself and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-69880651482355239622014-11-04T08:50:06.960-08:002014-11-04T08:50:06.960-08:00And the best to you too!And the best to you too!Ainsobrietyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15642935819165465190noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-30110743859920892742014-10-08T20:06:27.732-07:002014-10-08T20:06:27.732-07:00It's amaxing how we can fool even ourselves wi...It's amaxing how we can fool even ourselves with our masquerade.<br />The reluctance to admit we aren't perfect. It's just do mortifying. Until it isn't. And suddenly it's the most liberating, freeing thing in the world.<br />Pretending to be perfect tired me out. It took all my energy. And I never felt good or accepted or worthy.<br /><br />Admitting I was powerless came easy for me. all my fight was gone. I could not control alcohol. All I could do was stop trying, and start living again. <br /><br />I look forward to reading more of your journey. I think AA has a lot to offer anyone interested in self discovery.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-32783262546253824722014-10-07T04:56:04.654-07:002014-10-07T04:56:04.654-07:00Right. And it's probably because I wasn't...Right. And it's probably because I wasn't entirely "busted, broken, on the ropes" on the outside that my first attempt at Step 1 didn't take. I still had a job, a house, a car, custody of my kids, got places on time. I was broken inside, but I could still put on a good show outside.<br /><br />Thanks for your comment, and thanks for reading, Paul.Me, Myself and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-24547885923728951972014-10-06T21:45:35.479-07:002014-10-06T21:45:35.479-07:00I think I did step one while I still on a stool dr...I think I did step one while I still on a stool drinking. I knew long ago that I was an alcoholic and that I powerless over it and my life was unmanageable (i just didn't phrase it in those ways!). So reading that step an admitting it - easy. I was busted, broken, on the ropes. I knew I was going to die or kill someone at the rate I was going. My ego had to crack just ever so slightly for me to make that admission. And frankly, it was in that submission that I found true freedom.<br /><br />Like you, I saw *those* religious folks as these supplicant yes-men who I would never want to be like. But I learned that in surrendering, I won. Strange, and yes, my ego took a bruising to see that I couldn't "control" this, or allow myself to trust in the process, but in the end it was the best thing for me. <br /><br />I may not revel in my powerlessness over alcohol, but it was the gateway into which i could start my journey :)<br /><br />Paul Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11268135630773902295noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-8770643686914470682014-10-04T14:16:38.962-07:002014-10-04T14:16:38.962-07:00Thanks, Paul. Nice to hear that it's gotten b...Thanks, Paul. Nice to hear that it's gotten better for you. I think it's getting a little better for me, but the progress is indeed S.....L....O.....W....!Me, Myself and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-88652614282656200932014-10-04T08:42:24.264-07:002014-10-04T08:42:24.264-07:00I think we all do care about that. To different l...I think we all do care about that. To different levels, of course. I care a lot less than how I used to be, but I have my days. External validation is still a tough one for me, but I chip away at it ever so slowly. I don't need gazzillions of accolades or pats on the back to get me through the day. I don't have to manipulate people to say nice things about me. I don't have to feel that I don't exist unless other people tell me I do. But don't get me wrong - I have my days...lol. <br /><br />It's a journey, and we make our way through the idea that we aren't good enough to a place where we start to feel that we ARE good enough. And that's when the idea of seeking external validation starts to dwindle.<br /><br />That's been my experience. :)<br /><br />PaulAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-57662924102209430592014-09-12T21:27:28.368-07:002014-09-12T21:27:28.368-07:00write my friend....
for whatever reason.
just do i...write my friend....<br />for whatever reason.<br />just do it and let whatever happens, happen.<br /><br />anne lamott says bird by bird....<br />it's great adviceAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-21266501286076603672014-08-30T13:28:09.422-07:002014-08-30T13:28:09.422-07:00A lot of people have recommended her to me. I'...A lot of people have recommended her to me. I've been to her website and MEANT to listen to the podcast, but...the best laid plans of mice and men... Thanks for the reminder!Me, Myself and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-15502951797602576992014-08-30T08:58:58.544-07:002014-08-30T08:58:58.544-07:00love this...
the exploration.
May I suggest Tara B...love this...<br />the exploration.<br />May I suggest Tara Brach? Buddhist and clinical Psychologist, amazing. She has a website Tarabrach.com and there are guided meditations and incredible dharma talks galore..made a huge difference in the way i live my life. Her books are amazing too, Radical Acceptance and True Refuge.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-49274767965833460872014-08-30T06:40:49.982-07:002014-08-30T06:40:49.982-07:00Thanks for reading, Michele!Thanks for reading, Michele!Me, Myself and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-39056118106042585982014-08-28T10:25:52.129-07:002014-08-28T10:25:52.129-07:00so glad you are here...
can't wait to read mor...so glad you are here...<br />can't wait to read more!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-79863659701978498772013-11-29T07:30:51.240-08:002013-11-29T07:30:51.240-08:00Thanks. I'm reading yours too :-)Thanks. I'm reading yours too :-)Me, Myself and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15748708208091225286noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4302535362189092955.post-85092756793768583722013-11-28T20:13:54.804-08:002013-11-28T20:13:54.804-08:00I am reading. Keep writing and being honest. I lov...I am reading. Keep writing and being honest. I love it.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com